Don’t Hide the Madness

When it comes to art,
it’s important
not to hide the madness.

Atticus

I came across the quote while making a moodboard on Pinterest. Because, yes. That is a thing I did this weekend.

It’s one of a few silly, “out of character” internet habits that I’m temporarily re-thinking because (due to heavy-handed meddling from the stars) I’m slowly…slowly accepting my “character” as a construction. As the old one breaks down, I’m allowed to build a new one.

“New” requires a different point of view. While whining to a fellow astro-enthusiast friend about the barrage of shenanigans raining down on my chart, how unstable everything feels, and how poorly I do without an established construction of “Who I Am,” I was told to embrace the chaos with a spirit of curiosity.

And, like any Elder Millennial woman on a mission to create herself, I went straight to Pinterest.

Which was an excellent idea, because as trite as I find “inspo” memes, broken clocks are right at least two times a day and I needed that Atticus quote. Now, I’m not quite sure it’s from Atticus. It could very well be some shit an Adderall-addled tech bro or girl boss Blogopreneur made up from a wood table at a co-working space in Austin or marble writing desk with a crystal vase of daisies catching just the right amount of light from the window.

Either way, it’s an effective message. To think I can retreat from my creative endeavors (aka my life fuel) while I “figure things out” instead of creating my way through it…

Well, it’s a brand of control and self-restraint that won’t serve me well right now. The better bet is to move through it without struggling to define it. But you know, creature of habit and all that jazz(1), so the “inspo quote as reminder” is needed.

Dammit, Internet. You got me again.

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(1) Leo Rising, Scorpio Moon here. Both are fixed signs. Change is not my friend.

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a girl named rob

I used to be "skinny black girl." I'm now a slender woman on the other side of 35 with no new moniker who is not quite interested in writing under her given name. Still writing my life, a day (or some months) at a time. Also, still black.

4 thoughts on “Don’t Hide the Madness”

  1. “It could very well be some shit an Adderall-addled tech bro or girl boss Blogopreneur made up from a wood table at a co-working space in Austin or marble writing desk with a crystal vase of daisies catching just the right amount of light from the window.”

    This is one hilarious doozy of a sentence lmao

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