Out of This World

These days, I enjoy ideas more than people.

The other day, I watched a deep-dive on the Sun and its meaning in astrology and one of the speakers made a statement I’ve been thinking about for a couple of days:

“For me, having that strong fire and air energy, I have found that being in my body and being in the world is really challenging. And I often see it as providing endless obstacles for me to have to deal with in order to have that free-floating mental space that’s my preferred environment. There’s this quality of the Sun having to do with the mind and intelligence that it could be the case that people with the emphasis on solar energy are more comfortable and confident and capable in operating in the mental realms of pure ideas.”

With a Leo Rising, the Sun is the planet that rules my Rising Sign (aka the First House). Consider that I have my Sun in an air sign and yeah…the above statement describes so much of my life. For better or worse, I live in my head. It’s why I don’t really care to decorate my home (it’s just a place where my body hangs out while I flit from one obsessive mental pursuit to another) and why I’m easily annoyed or startled when people jar me out of my thoughts. It’s probably why I’m so addicted to Twitter—a space that allows me to live in my head in public.

I am forever in my thoughts. Imagining, processing, examining, categorizing… Since the COVID lockdowns last year, I am almost always listening to a podcast or an audiobook. And when I’m around other people, if I’m not intellectually engaged in what’s happening, I check out; screaming internally for mental stimulus even as I appear to go with the flow.

It’s making my post-vaccination re-entry into the world…interesting to say the least.

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a girl named rob

I used to be "skinny black girl." I'm now a slender woman on the other side of 35 with no new moniker who is not quite interested in writing under her given name. Still writing my life, a day (or some months) at a time. Also, still black.

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